Defining Finding Love

                           

I heard that the most frail and beautiful sound to hear after the pin dropping, is ice breaking.

When in Siberia, the world’s deepest lake, Baikal, would freeze, it would take about 3 months for the ice to get solid. In the first week of June the ice would start breaking. I would love to hear the frail first crack in the lake when the ice starts to break. I want to do that before I die, it’s said that the Baikal Lake is sacred and even though I (was) am an atheist, I feel that the sound of the first break of the ice of the world’s deepest lake would sound like, hymns coming from heaven itself.


I imagine myself coming in early morning and finding a spot in the lake where no would see me and lay down on the ice, I would be sure to wear warm clothes and stick my bear ear to the ice and wait for it and if the heavens really exists for a person like me, I would hear the first crack. So frail will it be, so light and so heavenly will it sound. I would do this until my ears could take no more. When the ice would melt and lake would regain its form, I would take a dip in the ice cold, holy water and my ceremony would end.

I imagined that that dip would feel like the first love. But for it feel like that it is absolutely necessary that I hear the first crack in the ice. In reality it is not possible to hear the sound of the pin dropping on ground, the phrase pin drop silence comes from the thought that there must be that much silence that if a pin drop you must be able to hear it, but this is not possible, only a bat can hear a pin drop, our ears cant but you can hear a pin drop in water as everything is magnified in water even sound. The chance of me being able to hear the first crack is almost as impossible as being able to hear a pin drop on a ground but I have heard it in the water so I remain positive. As positive as mathematics ability to calculate happiness. But what is amazing is that if a guy like Hawking can try and calculate how to reverse time only being human, then I can take my chance to hear that first crack and the pin drop.

For me finding those chances is finding love. That rarity and that slight possibility that exists to hear those sounds match the level of the chance of me finding love. Only if heaven exists…………..